Friday, May 19, 2006

* * * Work - Gd or Bad........ * * *

Sch
YiQing nvr come to sch ag today, dun noe y, hmmmm... Happy's HAPPY ag wif her sickness over i tink.. Haha! Imagine the contradiction when Happy's SAD!! But then, as the saying goes, To err is Human, to forgive is..... : ) Nvr came for the tut and pracs in the early afternoon, cause got a misunderstanding tat i tot was e-learning, Haiz...lucky my attendance is enuff to cover it. Anyway, the pros start alr and everybody is goin to be buzi once ag.. My attitutes' nt very rite when i came to sch today, dun noe is it because of PMS or sumthing, juz couldnt focus my mind rite on the things i should do and nt do, Juz feel irritated and frustrated....

Work
Everythings' fine cept for the supervisor which i SINCERELY hope would nt pick on me ag(IMPOSSIBLE), she can ALWAYS find sumthing to say abt me, wondering if it is because she noes hw much my manager is lookin out for me, i mean, my manager is a very polite and fair gal, whereas my supervisor is an arrogant and petty b***** who cant seemed to stand the sight of guys,LOL! Well, Im staying, FINAL!! Because i noe i will gain sumthing if i can stand these type of ppl, she will cause a prick to my flesh with all the stabbin of my back, but then i noe i can withstand all these nonsense and emerge VICTORIOUS!! HAH! Back to u, LADY! and tats MR ADAM to u!!

Self
feelin moody and lost these days, tryin to keep a straight face but then sumtimes juz cant.. felt tat when i really try to get sumthing done, i get slapped in the face everytime i giv it a shot, discouraging, sad to say. But then nevertheless im still tryin, harder eveytime, its like u noe all the things u need to do to make things rite, but then nth ever seems to go ur way, it always eludes u and makes things so hassling, so difficult to proceed on, breatheless... Imagine u hav juz got a glimmer of hope, then a great big cloud comes and took away everything... I mean, my life's always not goin very smoothly, so Y CANT IT GO SMOOTHLY FOR ONCE????? CANT i taste happiness and peace for a change and enjoy warmth and sunny days, or is it that im reachin that pinnacle in life when EVERYTHING goes wrong? I try so hard to act normal when in shc,but then its oh so hard, its hard when u are tryin to be normal when everythings' in ur life is upside dwn..... But no way am i gonna lose to these challenges, these are but obstacles tat i can pass on, .......


***Lost in the shadows of humanity,
Crumpled to bits as one flee.
Emptiness is but a kind of feelin,
Where one gets when life is goin.
Help is not to be given here,
Searching for nth is the greatest fear.
Lookin thru eyes tat see nt,
hearing thru ears tat hear nt.
Glancing back as the ages flew by,
Watching days go with the blink of an eye.
Have u ever felt this sadness,
or raged on in unknowing madness.
Have u ever been so helpless,
tat the dearest always leave the 1st.
No one can understand all this thoughts,
BUt eveyone who lives hav these feelins fought.
All in all can we as humans,
do wat is right juz like infants.
WAt to do and when is right,
Wat comes after the darkness and the light.
Try as we may nth ever seems enough,
We cant be as pure as the peaceful doves.
But then wat is to be done is always now,
Wat we respond when the goin gets down.
Are we able to withstand it all,
To emerge victorious or to crumble and fall....***

SpankyJewels posted at 3:42 AM