Tuesday, May 16, 2006

* * * Life............... * * *

Blog
Changed to a more recent song this time, one by Lin Jun Jie - Sa Dan A O(Korean for I-LUV-U). Very nice this song.

Sch
Slagged for a while today, Yingxi tested both Vin's and Yang's bike today, really looked like a biker gal!! Haha!! JJ's down with headache, but then with ample rest should do the trick.. ALso hopin Vin will past his final theory today, hopefully...

Com
Im SURPRISED tat bro did nt use the com yest and today, maybe he's too tired these few WEEKS playin the game..Well.. gd for me!! HeeHee...

Self
Filled with confusion abt wat i should do, but then, the ans are there alr. I always ask myself, God.. U had called me out into this place, changed me 180 degrees to one whereby none of my previous frds can barely recognize me...soo...soo.soo Mr Goody-Pants, I asked Him, Y did u bring me to this place, is it to let me exp pain, suffering, love-forsakeness.. As i was sharing wif JJ earlier on in the nite, i tot of the past me, i mean, wat i had was $, and there was countless gals who were willing to be wif one tat has...tats nt a worry for me in the past, I didnt even tot tat i could be in this type of situation be4..Maybe.... maybe He has called me, transformed me so tat i may exp this feeling of being rejected, being dumped, being lonely... My!! Hw the tables hav turned........ But ..all in all Im glad tat i hav became this way, piority being parents are ALOT more contented and eased tat im 'OK' nw.. Another being i now tat my future family would be a safe and gd one, because of the lifestyle im creating for them in the future..

Most ppl are always stayin in their comfort zones, one tat they would nt budge juz because they are too used to the lifestyle tat they are having nw, i mean, tats human, its very unbearable for u to tell them to change after so many years, sometimes these changes can be gd, eg..ME!! But then there could be bad ones also..

Couldnt slp, though i hav work later on after sch, i want to , but then my mind JUZ CANT STOP THINKIN..Of wat im nt sure, but then ag, of her who is yet to come...

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Where is Thee,the one tat shall love me,
tat Thou shall comfort and make me 4get
these unnessary tots and ease me of
the lonliness and sorrow,
Riddin my bed of its ascending coldness,
and put in place of it warmth and bliss,
with words of comfort and tears of joy will u bring to me,
with joyous emotions and contented feelings
that is to me more important
than any gold or diamond in the world.
That the very words of urs bring with it summer,
the very presence drives away the winter cold.
The one tat is to come, but has yet to be,
waited hav i long for this bright sunny sun,
which would repel the dark rainy days of mine,
for her smile to melt away this frozen heart in me,
for her tears to wash away the cuts tat i had beared be4.
I cant see clearly but wif u, cant hear wisely wifout ur lenient reprimands,
walk but without aim, slp but wifout rest.
Come to me u who is out there,
show me the way tat i've walked halfway through,
but which had gotten so dim i need ur light of love,
to penetrate thru the shadows..
Believe tat i can giv, provide,
and show u tat im the one u can be with,
the one who will bring to u happiness,
life and never-ending bliss...
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SpankyJewels posted at 5:08 AM