Monday, February 06, 2006

* * * Trying.... * * *

Sch
Missed sch last fri, all because i could nt slp at nite and stayed up all nite, till like 7 plus then my eyes auto closed! and my lesson starts at 8!!! No choice, somemore i've to finish up the pro and faster keep up with the design of the pro, felt tat i've nt been doin very many things, but then, engine is hot but the driver isnt, haha, wat to do nw wat to do.... gotta revise also for the exams......

Self
Feeling lonely, missed her soo F@@@@@@ much, then ag wondering if she is onli playin along or does she miss me to, i dun noe, but i cant stop my emotions frm feeling this way... All im hoping for is tat she can love me, and nt falsely love me... Mixed emotions always cloud my mind, y??? feel tat she still loves me, but then also feels tat shes nt...wating for her call...everytime i return home i would hav this expectation hoping tat she will be in my room, dwnstairs waitin for me, givin me a surprise, i would be soo contented, so happy alr, but then,she wouldnt, she cant, she will nt.... Wondering y does God alwasy giv me gals, noeing in the end i would suffer, noeing tat i would be hurt, so deeply tat i surprise myself even...tot i can let go, tats it, FINAL...But then i cant, y is it so, y cant i find a gal who loves me and treats me gd, simple and gd, y does the gals tat i had found always always hurt me soo deeply...

**Winds of loneliness, sands of insanity
helps everyone when they are down.
Cruel time, and merciless crowds,
mock at u with vicious frowns.
Looked everywhere for a hiding place,
searched everywhere for a deserted solace,
all i've found was hurt and pain,
all i've found was the Devil's gaze.
Help me Lord dun deny my plea,
giv me the strength and comfort me.
Triump over my enemies that i shall win,
Glory, happiness tat all will see....**

SpankyJewels posted at 3:55 AM