Thursday, February 02, 2006

* * * Haiz... * * *

Sch
Haha goin to Work first, then go studyin...gdgd. Poor Irvin was lamenting and grumbling abt all the bad abt it, hahaaha.. im ok wif it, especially that i can expereience first the work life and how to adapt to it..hehehehehe.

Self
Many things and situations caused me to forgo alot of appointments wif my frds, missing and skippin many of them... Becomin too complacent with myself and not goin too hard.. Tryin harder, engine too cold alr becoz of too much slaggin these few days and weeks.... Really wonder wats the meanin of everything, that sumtimes when the things that u wan happens to u, u wiil become bored and not cherish it, the feelings that i've had be4 was juz nt there anymore, y??? cant be who i used to be anymore, was it becoz of the other one, or it is juz me.... tormenting myself whenever i try. yet when one hand is doin this thing, i cat do the other thing correctly and smoothly.. Becomin more inwardly bound and hackcare, nt myself but y am i becomin like this, isst becoz of situations that brings me to this place or all myself....

It is a thing that causes one to lose oneself,totally forgetting ones composure and letting go of all dignity, yet it causes much warmth to one while bringin alot of anger to another.Worries and struggles it will consisst, and on the other side will be bliss and happiness, but the who is rite and who is wrong, who noes the limit and who can fathom wat will happen next...none... Yet, on top of everyhthing,it all comes down to ones undyin love for another, while to another it is continuing anguist and unbearable ...... LOVE = Love Often Violates Emotions

**THe greatest of emotions,yet the destroyer of all....**

SpankyJewels posted at 5:22 PM