Saturday, December 24, 2005

* * * Is it to be??? * * *

Soo tired, so shagged out...wondered if it is meant to be...wat does it all imply? None noes, but then physically its draining me, mentally it devouring me frm inside out.This feelin that i've asked for had turned me upside down, the lack of concentration has led to despair and anguist. So then, is it the ending that is to be,or is it the ending i wan. Somtimes i hope it would be wat i wan, but then it seems to drift further and furhter away frm me, y? failed so many ppl who had high hopes on me, was it cause of my improper judgement, tat i;ve touched somtimes not to be touched, or is it my fault..tat everything had turned out this way....

???i've to get goin no matter wat...???

SpankyJewels posted at 4:27 AM

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

* * * Festive joys....issit??? * * *

Sch
Been recovering from the MAJOR number of times i've not been goin to sch. But then still missed some of the lessons now, partly due to exhuastion and lack of time management, Going up steadily but then still hav to chase the others...

Work
Still fine in the workplace, except there are a bit of minor disturbances now and then, everything on the whole seems managable..

Self
Sometimes im thinking whether it is rite to feel this way, maybe im juz thinking too much,maybe im not contented enuff, not sure. But then hav to bear thru this few weeks 1st be4 anything can be finalized, juggling between al wif the two tiny hands i hav, a MAJOR problem, often neglecting some and putting too much concentration on others... B's been very gd, yet sometimes i feel i must noe her even more, cause its like i had not knew her be4, yet we are so close, hav to see for myself where this all leads, cause it will not be a sad one, this i must prevent.waiting for the time when we could relly sit back and relax for a while, cause i noe she's very tired alr, but then she still hav to go on, hope to giv her a better life in the future........Struggleing in my heart, when i see her so stressed, so exhausted, feelin i've not done my part at all........

"Contentment is hw we go about to approach it"

SpankyJewels posted at 10:36 AM