Monday, August 22, 2005

* * * Happy dayz.. * * *

Work
Gotta work next week alr, partly because of the extra cash and partly because felt an obligation to help the guys there. Not because if im not there they cant finish their job, just tat i can also destress myself and also giv them a helpin hand.

Sch
Went studyin wif JJ today, next weeks' got test comin and prac test the week after next.. Somemore after 2 weeks is the start of the exams alr, must really study hard to score for it..

Self
Went "da you" wif the guys..JJ introed me to 2 of his frds who were very frdly.. They reminded me alot of my past frds..... Memories of the gd and bad flooded me whenever i tot of it.... Haiz

I tot i could control the inner self, but then in fact it was it who controlled me. Somehow its true when they say tat "a leopard will nvr change its spots", change was clear in me, but then its not change, its juz compressed into a deeper part of my heart, waitin for the chance to escape and return to its true form, i've kept it locked till nw, but then i feel im losin my will against it..slowly and yet steadily it takes control.. tryin..Hw can i break free, help me....

Im not wat i used to be anymore, evolved frm the 2nd stage and into the 3rd stage, where will i be, wat will i become, none noes.. My vision of the future is gettin bleak, but i'll try, not for my sake..but for my next generation....

**Most barriers in life is man-made, and...more often then not, we're the ones tat made them..**

SpankyJewels posted at 3:49 AM