Wednesday, June 15, 2005

* * * One gd deed deserves another.. * * *

Went to class late (ag!!), but then i feel sorry for the poor teacher, abt 1/3 of the class did not go for the tut, but then i can still understand wat he is sayin, tat means he is still quite gd mah...Got a bit satisfied wif java today, cause most of the codes do myself one! : ) But then also got help frm irvin, jj and jason also, thkz guys..

I PASSED MY PRAC 2, so happy i could KISS the instructor!! He overlooked my goin out of course in the bumpy course and also my putting of the rite leg on the ground (both of which are immediate failures to most instructors) Lucky, Lucky, Lucky!!! Finally able to book my circuit revision (tom) and also Prac 3 (tom nite) Happy, Happy, Happy!!! After tat i passed by the busstop overlookin the police station and saw an uncle sleepin there, when i reached his side he looked up and continued wif his sleepin, felt sory for him and approached him askin if he had eaten, he said no and i passed him $10 to eat. (He looked so "Ke Lian lor", no shirt, unshaved beard, slpin on the bus stop seat!) My heart really went out to him, told myself tat if i continue to slag next time will become like him like tat (not an insult but an encouragement to me, to call me to persevere on..) Really poor thing him...

Went back by the MRT and saw a couple which the gal looked very like Esther(but not), tot of her and memories flooded back, maybe wat Sharon said is true, still cant let go after these four and a half yrs, still think of her and had let no one else enter my life, Immaturity, stubbornness, perhaps i've not grown up yet, perhaps its just the way things are.... Left a scar that was put there to stay, a place where none can sway...

*It is but a fraction or time spent, a period of bliss that, far sadness went.
Left something permanent, yet fragile as a new born infant.
Used all kinds of things to replace it, but in the end none ever did.
My fault to let it all remain, it was mine, the cause of the pain.
Emptiness, sorrow is nothing to, the feelin of loss that i've been a fool.
Life goes on as it always will, humans change as they are frail.
Feelins doesnt and nvr will, end of life it then will heal......*

SpankyJewels posted at 1:21 AM