**The Isle of Isolation**
* * * Helpless... * * *
| Removal went well today, went Westin Stamford Hotel to take some pillows and mattresses. Atfer tat went back to the factory and stayed the whole day there. frm 4 pluz til 6.30 slag. gdgd! Frd wanted to intro a gal of his to me but i rejected it. He said she's my type but i was wondering, i cant cope wif one more thing wif alll the situation im facin...Haiz... hav to postpone this til a later data liao.. Talked to my frd abt getting the super 4 thing and he recommended me his frd whose not goin to drive his charade anymore, i hav to continuw his instalments and then drive the car. talked to a few of my close frds and maybe goin to take it frm him, though it might be an old car but its still a form of transport.....Thinking.... Met wif one of my frd, lun, and we talked for a while, his not been workin and i gave him $50 to pass over the moment. told him to find a job but his always, "okok, wil find one lah." he's 30plus alr and stil doesnt noe how to think! wat if his gf now wanna get married or something and then wat if he got kids or something? Cant he think a bit further! Wanted to help him but very tight on my side .... Talked to dad abt his situation, told him tat if the worst case senario was to happen, i will not continue studyin and work full liao to support the family and my bro's sch fees. He cried...dun noe because he was touched or because he felt helpless, well... nth i can do cept to wait for the medical report. : ( Timetable came out alr, Haiz.. 1 week later gonna start sch liao.. Its gd in a way, faster finish it faster go out and work liao.. auntie gave me a price tag of $141 for the 256MB FM Creative MP3 player..asked irvin and sharon for their veiws and they gave the green light, but then still considering the benefits and if i would really need it..... Was sad these few days, dun noe y, feel soo helpless, so lonely and pissed off over the minute details..stress? loneliness? cant say for sure, but i feel im gonna break down soon, i always try to care for others probs and stuff but who wil care abt mine, who can be there for me when i really need her....i dun wanna trouble others though, tats y im always cooped up inside of me and nvr turn to any1. Been thru too much experiences to really open up to any1 now....But i must try to go on... for the family i hav now, and the future one tat i wil hav..... *It hurts..... when u are alone....* |
SpankyJewels posted at 11:14 PM
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